There are only 11 days left until I leave for Utah. I'm feeling so many emotions right now.
1. I'm feeling pretty guilty about leaving Heath behind. He's going to have to be caring for a lot of animals on his own.
2. Worried...Because Heath is going to be caring for all of the animals on his own!
3. Sad...This brings home the fact that my Grandma is really gone. Normally she would be making this trip. I remember that Grandma would always forget my birthday because she would be so busy in Utah. She would always call a few days later and apologize. I just thought it was kind of funny. A tradition in a way.
4. Nervous...I've NEVER been out of the South in my entire life. I'm just a regular, hard working country bumpkin that raises possums for fun! How am I really supposed to fit in with these folks?
5. Even more nervous and EXTREMELY excited...I'm meeting a lot of family that I've heard about my entire life. I'm also meeting some "new found" family. (That's a story for a different time.) I'm also getting to visit Best Friends Animal Society. Best Friends is like the most amazing animal rescue/sanctuary EVER!
6. Terrified...They want me to go near THE GRAND CANYON!!! My mom used to pretend that her brakes had gone out while driving down hills. It scared me to death as a child and now she wants me to ride over, across, or however you drive around the Grand Canyon???
I'm ready though. It's going to be a roller coaster ride of emotions from beginning to end. Grandma would have loved nothing more than to see us all together. If only we had done this before she passed away. Please be thinking of my family between June 18-28. It's going to be a very exciting and joyful time, but we are all going to be feeling a lot of very difficult emotions. My family has discovered a lot of secrets that we were not prepared to discover. I have to say that some of the secrets are amazing and wonderful to find out, but with that comes a lot of other emotions. We've been left with a lot of questions that will likely never be answered and the fact that my Grandma carried a lot of pain on her own. Now I understand why Grandma had such an understanding and non-judgmental nature. I've learned a lot about patience and understanding since she passed.
Be ready for lots of pictures and lots of reading when I get back!
1. I'm feeling pretty guilty about leaving Heath behind. He's going to have to be caring for a lot of animals on his own.
2. Worried...Because Heath is going to be caring for all of the animals on his own!
3. Sad...This brings home the fact that my Grandma is really gone. Normally she would be making this trip. I remember that Grandma would always forget my birthday because she would be so busy in Utah. She would always call a few days later and apologize. I just thought it was kind of funny. A tradition in a way.
4. Nervous...I've NEVER been out of the South in my entire life. I'm just a regular, hard working country bumpkin that raises possums for fun! How am I really supposed to fit in with these folks?
5. Even more nervous and EXTREMELY excited...I'm meeting a lot of family that I've heard about my entire life. I'm also meeting some "new found" family. (That's a story for a different time.) I'm also getting to visit Best Friends Animal Society. Best Friends is like the most amazing animal rescue/sanctuary EVER!
6. Terrified...They want me to go near THE GRAND CANYON!!! My mom used to pretend that her brakes had gone out while driving down hills. It scared me to death as a child and now she wants me to ride over, across, or however you drive around the Grand Canyon???
I'm ready though. It's going to be a roller coaster ride of emotions from beginning to end. Grandma would have loved nothing more than to see us all together. If only we had done this before she passed away. Please be thinking of my family between June 18-28. It's going to be a very exciting and joyful time, but we are all going to be feeling a lot of very difficult emotions. My family has discovered a lot of secrets that we were not prepared to discover. I have to say that some of the secrets are amazing and wonderful to find out, but with that comes a lot of other emotions. We've been left with a lot of questions that will likely never be answered and the fact that my Grandma carried a lot of pain on her own. Now I understand why Grandma had such an understanding and non-judgmental nature. I've learned a lot about patience and understanding since she passed.
Be ready for lots of pictures and lots of reading when I get back!
I hope you have a WONDERFUL trip with lots of wonderful stories and pictures to share when you get home! Have a safe trip :))
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